I think God should've made sure that as soon as a baby pops out, that moms look smokin' hot. I mean come on, motherhood is tough enough, we don't need to worry about losing weight too!
Today I am having what I like to call a "fat day." I stepped on the scale this morning and realized I only lost 1 pound this week. Fat, I'm gonna need you to come off quicker than that.
I've always had some body issues but they have sky rocketed since I had Jackson. As most pregnant women do, I got bigger all over when I was pregnant. I really didn't know that my butt could get any bigger! I have always hated the size of my rear end, as it has always been the largest part of my body. I mean come on, I was named "Honorary Black Chick" in my teaching cohort because the African American ladies in the group said I had a "sister's booty." It is things like this that I am sure are partially meant as a compliment, but seem to make me feel worse about myself. Another reason I hate my butt and legs is that I've had cellulite since the age of 16. That's a really freakin' long time to see cottage cheese every time you look in the mirror.
Before pregnancy, I could ignore my bottom half somewhat because of my nice top half. But, I no longer have that flat tummy and "nice rack" that I prided myself on. Instead, I have a "Kruger." I call it this because the saggy skin and stretch marks have caused my stomach to look like Freddie Kruger's face. Also, somehow, my breasts both deflated and got bigger at the same time. How that's possible, I'm not so sure?
I see all these celebrities that seem to bounce right back to their pre-pregnancy weight within what seems like weeks after giving birth. I know they have nutritionists and personal trainers, but come on, it can't be impossible can it? Also, facebook isn't helping much. I have several friends who had babies after me and have already reached their goal weights. I shake my fist at all you skinny girls! Ugh.
I know that most of my struggle is my fault. I haven't been sticking to Weight Watchers as close as I should have and need to step up the exercise a little. It is so hard, though! Life gets in the way. Either Jackson gets sick, or it is raining too hard for me to run, or something else happens to prevent me from exercising. There is always an excuse I guess. The worst part is my eating habits. I am totally addicted to sweets and fried, greasy foods. And, I don't even want to get into how much more expensive it is to eat healthy. It is virtually impossible to stick to my budget at the grocery store and buy healthy meals and snacks. It's a conspiracy I tell you!
Today I am recommitting myself to get back on track. I will be counting points obsessively and trying my hardest to exercise 3-4 times a week. My goal for now is to get to my pre-pregnancy weight and clothing size before I go to the beach this summer. That gives me around 2 months to lose 10 lbs and a pants size. Think it's possible? I sure hope so!
Any tips and support you can give is welcomed. Thanks for listening to my rant. I'll try not to make whiney posts a regular thing.